Friday, July 2, 2010
xcolsd. at 4:43 PM

i sdoubt anybosdy weoulsd unsdwersdtansd wehat i'm typing wexccxwept mydswelf.

no xcapital lwettwersd ansd weill auto tweit kweyboarsd, howe xcool xcan it bwen. hahahah.

sdupewr sdupwer ubwer gxcuking xcolsd sdiol.

am at dsafra lan weith irisd ansd jamiwe nowe. cxiaobwei, hl, ansd sdwevil sdon't knowe go wehwerwe alrweasdy. hahahaha.

i fweewl likwe sdlweweping nowe ah!
xoxo,
you know you love me



Sunday, June 27, 2010
Tired. at 11:47 AM

I felt like as though I was in a marathon from thurs till sat.

Thursday met up w Boyfee early in the morn. Her son(s) came, her boy came w his friend. They accompanied me to Eastcoastpark. Didn't waited until the bbq really started and we left. Uhm, no mood. Sent the rest back, then had dinner w Boyfee. Safra lan-d, and went to Kor's house. After that, went home. Too tired.

Friday met up w Kor in the morn, drink drink then afternoon, went met up w Boyfee and her mum in the afternoon, went to Malaysia and meet up w her boy and the friend. Alot of things happened uh. 一言难尽. Shopped w Boyfee's mum. Bought random stuffs, which I don't think I will ever use. Tsk. Back to Singapore and home then out meet Kor drink again.

Saturday morn came home. Then, slept until evening wake up. Then ate, bathe, watch school shoe and slept slept slept slept until today morn.

I look very chui now. ): Skipping 6.3 class gathering, since I'm running low on cash. But but, if someone ask me out, I confirm plus chop go meet him. :D



I haven't got myself a new school bag ! ):
Neither had I started on my homeworks.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Plans! at 8:58 AM



Shopped at jp w Iris! Like wow, I never knew can shop at jp. :/ We had pizzahut for lunch cum dinner. Last min decide go meet Teckheng and his friend watch movie. Well, because he treat. :B Faster get changed at Iris's house and we headed down to Outrampark meet them then went Dhobyghaut. Watch Toy Story 3! It was touching. I almost cried. {My girl friends who watched movie w me before will know I cry during almost all movie. :/} After the movie, home sweet home! :D It was freaking coldddd in the cinema. And it sort of reminded me of some people.

Aww, I feel v lethargic. But I just can't fall back to sleep after 2hours. Finally understood what Alwena meant. Haha.

Time faded away alot, but those memories and that you seem clearer than ever before. Every day, I uncover truths about everything you did. Looking back at the past, I realised we was really in love. Just that the love I wanted was too complicated for you. Right person at the wrong time, I think? I can't even hate you anymore.

Perhaps, you was too like him. That's why I thought I love you.

27th day I knew you, Liyang, my ggf (:

Yesterday was already over. Look forward to every tomorrow. :D Shall get ample rest today. Thurs going East Coast Park with Iris, and her boy, and her boy's friend, and maybe some of Iris's guy friend in the morning. After playing with them, I will join my classmates for our class bbq at East Coast Park too! Then probably play till evening, go back find Iris and then, maybe going clubbing or ton? Hahahahaha. Then complete all my homework on fri and sat. Then sun go catch movie and have dinner with my 6.3 classmates! Hahahahaha. Another class gathering. Weewooooo !




如果我可以不爱了..
xoxo,
you know you love me



Saturday, June 19, 2010
Tired. at 8:11 AM

Tired, I'm sleepy, I'm dizzy. I feel like slumbbering back to sleep until holiday is over. Bought the big clip on hair extension piece, is curly deh. My real hair is like longer than it. Like finally uh.

Was like an idiot, waiting for Teckheng to come lakeside meet me. Then close to 12am, he say he last min got something on. Asshole.

I don't feel like talking, don't feel like thinking, also, don't feel like crying today.

Baby, do you love me? Because I know I love you.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Saturday, June 12, 2010
Sleep. at 9:08 AM

It's extreme irritating when someone wake you up when you've got absolute nothing to do. Lack of sleep fml. I've been waking up at 6am every morning just to go to school, today I'm like suppose to sleeppppppp until i shuang de leh. Now, I think he either went back to sleep, or started working already. Bored like wtf . I should had start work today de lah. Sianzation !

Oh, I still have many many many many homework undone.



Half of this one month long holiday? Like shit. Only sat and sun is holiday.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Friday, June 11, 2010
Forever? at 9:15 PM

未来太遥远 也许没有终点

I don't know how long forever is. Or when we die? Or when we parted w each other? Is it really even after we die, it hasn't end?
To myself.

Girl, it's time to grow up. Forever never last, promises are meant to be brokened, fairytales won't exist. Shed those tears, shed those blood. Will they ever know how it cuts through your heart when he say things w.o thinking? No men will be different from the first. Wake up. You'll be better on your own. So what if he saw your red puffy eyes, will he ever remember he hurt someone so badly? Will he ever notice your small little habits like how you observed his? Will he know exactly how you felt even when you didn't showed it? Will he know he meant the most? To you, maybe he was everything. But to him, you was never. Never even part of the future he planned. He believe that you won't leave, so you have to show him. Show him you'll be happier w.o him. Just like how he said he is going to be w.o you. Be brave. Cry in the dark, so no one can see. Every tomorrow is a brand new start. Let go . Maybe he won't regret, maybe he will. It doesn't matters anymore. You tried. You tried giving in, you tried forking out. He just got too use to having you around. You will be alright on your own. You will .
xoxo,
you know you love me



Single! at 6:31 AM

I'm officially singleeee again! :D
I didn't cried at all, it was just the way I thought it would. I don't even bloody want to text you or be in contact w you any way or any method, forever.

I badly badly want to get a big piece clip on hair extensions. But the one I saw, the quality was not that good. Maybe shall get it from the shop behind he one I'm working next tues or cityplaza. Heheh. I think it's like chio like wtf luh. After I get pay next next week, I will shoppppppp. I got alot of I-wants! running through my head now. I feel like doing manicure ehs, I want base white, red polkadots and few blingblings. But but, my school. ): Nevermind, control control. Cannot overspend, someone keep telling me to save up, save up. But but, DSRL is chioooo. Iris want the Nikon D5000, which costs about 900$ ehs. And I'll be contented w just the Sony one, it'll only be 550$ ehs. HAHAHAH. Happy happy. I love Sony cams! And it's cheapppp. So die also must get, right? :DDDD Shopping makes me happy, shopping ftw!

K.LiYang is my goooodgoooodfrienddddddd uh. :D
He said he will sleep at 10.30pm then wake up at 7am accompany me sms, but he's still asleep. LOL. We've been sms-ing since 26th May, so we sms-d for 15 days already non-stop! Crazy uh. No wonder my hand is numb. :/ Guess he's the only one who can endure my v. sudden moodswings and my v. problematic attitude problem. Wahahahah!

I only bought new suspenders. Since my old one is the elastic one, always pull my pants until like wtf pain. So I bought a longger leather-like one. Heheh.

Okay, shall get ready to go school now.
Though I really really don't feel like going.

Tsk, my fever is like still on and off.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Sick. at 5:02 PM

I am sick, hope the fever cont. until tomorrow. Then don't need school. Heheh. Am going out w Iris'boyfee tomorrow! :D

It's the worst feeling when you're sick, and your close friends don't even know. I learnt to not rant about that I'm v. v. v. v. unwell. I fall sick easily, since I was a toddler. Aiyah, who cares~

Enough of those hyprocrites. They only know how to por people, pathetic!
xoxo,
you know you love me



Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Money! at 9:16 PM



Tiring long day, I'm starting work next week again! :D Money money rolls in! Uh. Only working for 11days. Heheh. Today Iris call me ask then I ask Rina then I know got work deh. {Shit. I suddenly remember I next week going help Kor work, by sorting out stuffs out for him. :/} Brr. I will bank in all that I earn, Like Real! {Roll eyes.} Heh heh.

Good Good Friend is Loved! :D
Sweetest human on earth, friends forever, K.liyang.



Uh. I think Friendship is v. important now.

And, hell, what happened to my weekly and daily plans? Oh man, push it till after holidays then. Too Bad . {Evil grins}

Wakakakakaka!

I super highhhh now de lah.

Weeeewooooooo~
xoxo,
you know you love me



Monday, June 7, 2010
Study. at 7:46 PM

Photo taken ages, like start of this year? At Esplanade's Häagen-Dazs w Suqin to watch her school's ex-concertband members performance. Ps. I know I got wonderful memory. :D

I am going to start understanding chem & bio, memorising geog & ss, reading english newspaper daily, doing 4 maths papers per week, complete canvas & prep & start drawing for art paper2, lastly, save my attendance.

Today is the day I set up my mind to strive my v. best for my future. Like I once said before, I don't ever want to let myself be stuck in a situation where I got nowhere to go. Choose the school, the course, and not let the school, the course choose you.

So, here, Sorry.
I don't feel like going anywhere until o'level is over. Unless you spons me go UniversalStudio, Taiwan, Japan. {Inclusive of shopping in which You pay for everything I want.} Teehee.

There's alot I want to say, but I don't know where to start. Hais. Nevermind.

SAVE THE WORLD. DO YOUR PART.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Sunday, June 6, 2010
For love. at 8:40 AM

为爱勇敢一次 :D

I'll believe in everything you say. I'll do all you want me to do. I'll be very obedient and listen to you. Really.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Saturday, June 5, 2010
Smile. at 11:17 AM

Nothing, it's just that I've stopped trying.

My hands are aching from all those sms-ing. I fell asleep, and is constantly woke up by texts. I'm okay already. No worries! I am Pangpang leh, :D Hahahah. I dreamt that I plucked out 3 of my teeth last night! Including my right tiger tooth. Lmao!

I smiled, because I know I still got my boy to like me. (:

W truckload of loves.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Thursday, June 3, 2010
Smile. at 4:58 PM

It's like you're no longer that you I know.

I'm already over that part that should hurt, it was a few days of peace for me. It's like my heart is in a blank. I suddenly realise actually I liked being on my own. But still, I hope to have someone there for me when I emo every here and there. It's a mixed feeling, I don't know how I'm going to feel tomorrow. Today is already half gone. I can't look back at the past anymore, it's all fading away. One day, maybe I won't even remember what happened at all. That day may be today, tomorrow or the day after. Who knows.

Smile, smile from the bottom of my heart. (:

Pfft. I feel like drinking again.
Uh, I'm not okay. Again.


Homeworks ftw.
I'm going to start loving Chem, Bio, Geog and Ss today.
After o'levels, I'll just dump it all back to the school.
I swear.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Moved on. at 9:15 PM

Close an eye to all that's running through my life everyday. I really can't afford to be affected anymore. If I breakdown again, the consequences are so going to be so indiserable. Smile, yea, keep on smiling. (:

It's a tiring tiring day after volleyball-ing and badminton-ing w Yahyah & clique. Old bones I have. It feels great to be back where I was. That was where my first kiss was, that was where I met someone, that was where my dreams first faded. It's all memories I can't forgo. You guys thought I've didn't cared about anything at all, but I did, and I remembered more than you guys did. But it's pointless already.

We've all moved on on our own.

為什麼我受的傷害,總是比別人多?
xoxo,
you know you love me



Monday, May 31, 2010
Fcuk. at 8:29 PM

I Don't Feel Like Thinking The Next Whole Bloody 4436489372Hours .

Super duper uber bad mood.
Will flare up at anybody, anytime, anywhere.
I fcuk hate.

Damn. Cb.

Me, Myself and I.
Till the end, I'm still on my own.
What A Joke.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Screwed. at 3:31 PM

Today's O'level Chinese Paper Was Screwed ttm.
I went crazy the whole day, nuts.

Kay, gonna retake.
Yawns.

Hence, I Shall Nap .
xoxo,
you know you love me



Sunday, May 30, 2010
I am. at 5:55 PM

I'm missing you, and I know you're working, and I also know I should not disturb.

Hungry uh. ):

My dad, mum and my two sis are out for swimming. Leaving me, the pathetic allergic-to-pool-water me at home. I'm allergic to many many many many things. Even water. Everytime after I bathe, I will have rashes and itch all over. And, reminds me! Teacher told me to go for blood test, to see what is it that I'm allergy to. Because I seem to have food allergy. Hmms.

Yay! He ended work. :D
xoxo,
you know you love me



Will. at 12:15 PM

Ultimately, there will be a day I forget you thoroughly.

如果你很愛一個人,那麼你要讓他飛。
如果你們相愛,那麼,他一定會飛回到你身邊。
如果你們註定無緣,那麼在他振翅的那一剎那,
你只要說聲再見。
I locked up my heart after you left. But I have a feeling someone is prying into my heart. One day, maybe, he will be able to replace you. One day, maybe, I will lose him too.

I don't understand why those who claim love me, never stays.

Tired, I'm just someone seeking for a sense of belonging. Maybe, you just did not realise.

Tomorrow's Olevel Mother Tongue Paper.
Good luck, everyone. (:

Somehow, you resembles him. And I helplessly just can't say no to you.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Friday, May 28, 2010
Reality. at 10:23 AM

우리는 설탕, 슬픈에게 친절하고 있습니다.

I'm already 17, feigning ignorance really is not my thing anymore.
I just don't know how to go by saying, not that I don't want to say.

I miss heart-to-heart sessions w you all. Badly badly.

Banned from going out, my results.. I'm speechless.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Thursday, May 27, 2010
Helpless. at 2:19 PM

As a child, even at age of 5, I had started detesting school, detesting teachers.

I just don't know why I feel so helpless now either.

I can't feel the sense of belonging. I don't know where I should go. I don't know how to overcome loneliness. I can't pretend I'm okay today. I don't know how to forgive. I don't know what to do. I don't know who I am either.

It's like, I had alot of people stand by me, then the next, I'm all alone.

Like how I felt years back..

Who can I turn to?
..When nobody is around anymore.

I get reprimanded for things I'm suppose to do and I did, for things I'm not suppose to do and I did, for things I'm suppose to do and I did not, and even for thing I'm not suppose to do and I did not. Fairness does not exist in my life, really.

命運就像是一齣、安排好的戲碼,將我和他錯排開來,漸行漸遠。
每當我一不留神,他的形影還是會躍入腦海,佔住我所有的思維,
隨著分離時日的拉長,他的影像沒有轉淡,
反而多了一種名叫思念的東西,它像隻小蟲,
侵入我的血液、骨髓,一寸一寸的啃蝕著我。
xoxo,
you know you love me



Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Decision. at 5:14 PM

I can't help thinking what I'll become if I've got no friends to go running to when I meet an obstacle. I can't even imagine, really. Heard opinions from many many, majority is negative, though supportive. Thanks, peep! I took every word seriously.

Ps, partly for you, Sanba. (:

Next Monday is O'level Chinese Papers! :D
Shall read more and more and more stories. Good luck to all!

唯有擁有過的人,才知失去的難受;唯有失去過的人,才懂得擁有的珍貴。
xoxo,
you know you love me



Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Dilemma. at 2:59 PM

I don't know if I should or should not . ):

Hoping someone will stop me.
Hoping I can get new number, new phone, new bag, new pencilbox, new waterbottle, new hairstyle and everything new.
Hoping I can start everything anew .

The decision is still my thing, can't totally rely on others, right?

愛了就是愛了,無需掩飾不必扭捏。
你可以不愛我,但是我愛你。
我可以愛你,但我不必放棄自己。
勇敢示弱,不必在你我之間爭奪勝者寶座。
感覺是起點,但婚姻可以不必是終點。
愛情本身就是完滿,無需添加更多。
I know, I've always been a very contradict person.
xoxo,
you know you love me



Sunday, May 23, 2010
我的手 忘不了 你手的温度 at 10:06 AM

Menstrual cramp sucks. ):

I want to sleep and sleep until O'levels are over. But but! I just told myself to study at least 4hours daily. I was thinking about pushing it tomorrow, or start tomorrow. :B That's bad, I know. Yawn. Sleep awhile, swear tonight confirm plus chop will study. :D

Aww, I feel like shopping uh. I randomly feel like chopping off my hair. Hmmmms. And I feel like having naval piercing. Though I know my belly button is v not suitable. ): Nape piercing and corset piercing looks v pain to me. ._.
xoxo,
you know you love me




Me, Myself & I.

PANGPANG ♥

"You'll never understand the reason, until you look deep enough into the cut to see the emotional pain that put it there."


All I Ever Wanted
,is still you.

NewUrbanMale Shoulderbag
Iphone!
Iphone JuicyCotour casing
Chanel handbag
Study 45hrs Daily
Blonde hair w Goldbrown highlight
Gucci Lanyard
Drink Milk/Fruitjuice Daily
Meetup w Girlfriends


Talk To Me
,don't leave.



Leave Me
,say goodbye.

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Those Memories
,i can't forgo.

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