Fcuk. at 8:29 PM

I Don't Feel Like Thinking The Next Whole Bloody 4436489372Hours .

Super duper uber bad mood.
Will flare up at anybody, anytime, anywhere.
I fcuk hate.

Damn. Cb.

Me, Myself and I.
Till the end, I'm still on my own.
What A Joke.


Screwed. at 3:31 PM

Today's O'level Chinese Paper Was Screwed ttm.
I went crazy the whole day, nuts.

Kay, gonna retake.
Yawns.

Hence, I Shall Nap .


I am. at 5:55 PM

I'm missing you, and I know you're working, and I also know I should not disturb.

Hungry uh. ):

My dad, mum and my two sis are out for swimming. Leaving me, the pathetic allergic-to-pool-water me at home. I'm allergic to many many many many things. Even water. Everytime after I bathe, I will have rashes and itch all over. And, reminds me! Teacher told me to go for blood test, to see what is it that I'm allergy to. Because I seem to have food allergy. Hmms.

Yay! He ended work. :D


Will. at 12:15 PM

Ultimately, there will be a day I forget you thoroughly.

如果你很愛一個人，那麼你要讓他飛。
如果你們相愛，那麼，他一定會飛回到你身邊。
如果你們註定無緣，那麼在他振翅的那一剎那，
你只要說聲再見。

I locked up my heart after you left. But I have a feeling someone is prying into my heart. One day, maybe, he will be able to replace you. One day, maybe, I will lose him too.

I don't understand why those who claim love me, never stays.

Tired, I'm just someone seeking for a sense of belonging. Maybe, you just did not realise.

Tomorrow's Olevel Mother Tongue Paper.
Good luck, everyone. (:

Somehow, you resembles him. And I helplessly just can't say no to you.


Reality. at 10:23 AM

우리는 설탕, 슬픈에게 친절하고 있습니다.

I'm already 17, feigning ignorance really is not my thing anymore.
I just don't know how to go by saying, not that I don't want to say.

I miss heart-to-heart sessions w you all. Badly badly.

Banned from going out, my results.. I'm speechless.


Helpless. at 2:19 PM

As a child, even at age of 5, I had started detesting school, detesting teachers.

I just don't know why I feel so helpless now either.

I can't feel the sense of belonging. I don't know where I should go. I don't know how to overcome loneliness. I can't pretend I'm okay today. I don't know how to forgive. I don't know what to do. I don't know who I am either.

It's like, I had alot of people stand by me, then the next, I'm all alone.

Like how I felt years back..

Who can I turn to?
..When nobody is around anymore.

I get reprimanded for things I'm suppose to do and I did, for things I'm not suppose to do and I did, for things I'm suppose to do and I did not, and even for thing I'm not suppose to do and I did not. Fairness does not exist in my life, really.




Decision. at 5:14 PM

I can't help thinking what I'll become if I've got no friends to go running to when I meet an obstacle. I can't even imagine, really. Heard opinions from many many, majority is negative, though supportive. Thanks, peep! I took every word seriously.

Ps, partly for you, Sanba. (:

Next Monday is O'level Chinese Papers! :D
Shall read more and more and more stories. Good luck to all!

唯有擁有過的人，才知失去的難受；唯有失去過的人，才懂得擁有的珍貴。


Dilemma. at 2:59 PM

I don't know if I should or should not . ):

Hoping someone will stop me.
Hoping I can get new number, new phone, new bag, new pencilbox, new waterbottle, new hairstyle and everything new.
Hoping I can start everything anew .

The decision is still my thing, can't totally rely on others, right?

愛了就是愛了，無需掩飾不必扭捏。
你可以不愛我，但是我愛你。
我可以愛你，但我不必放棄自己。
勇敢示弱，不必在你我之間爭奪勝者寶座。
感覺是起點，但婚姻可以不必是終點。
愛情本身就是完滿，無需添加更多。

I know, I've always been a very contradict person.


我的手 忘不了 你手的温度 at 10:06 AM

Menstrual cramp sucks. ):

I want to sleep and sleep until O'levels are over. But but! I just told myself to study at least 4hours daily. I was thinking about pushing it tomorrow, or start tomorrow. :B That's bad, I know. Yawn. Sleep awhile, swear tonight confirm plus chop will study. :D

Aww, I feel like shopping uh. I randomly feel like chopping off my hair. Hmmmms. And I feel like having naval piercing. Though I know my belly button is v not suitable. ): Nape piercing and corset piercing looks v pain to me. ._.